Drifting

It’s been over a year since the last update of this blog, and let me tell you- its been an eventful one.

So much has happened in this past year that i’m at a point in my life where I barely recognise the girl that wrote some of these earlier blog posts anymore. The inspired motivated Holly has recently been quite hard to find.

However, this past year was probably one of the best of my life. It was a whirlwind of a year- I was so busy my feet barely touched the ground. I found passion in my work, fell in love, travelled to New York and Paris and ultimately was the happiest I have felt in a long time.

But a lot has changed recently and i’ve felt myself beginning to drift. I’ve moved away from everyone and everything that I know to start university, and lost not only one of my closest friends, but also been on the receiving end of a not too amicable break up- all within weeks of each other. It took its toll- so much change happening too quickly- and as someone that suffers with control issues engrained from years of various eating disorders, and as someone that always likes to know what is going on and have a plan- it hasn’t really been a great few months for me.

I’ve been feeling out of touch with myself. And that needs to change. I’ve made some amazing friends at uni and I have realised that being away from home has helped in some aspects. Being detached from everything that reminded me of her gave me time to distract myself and pretend everything was fine. Haa yeah- that’s something I do a lot too- pretending everything is fine even if I can tell it’s not. Something my ex could never get her head around was my inability to talk about feelings ever- I hated showing too much emotion if it wasn’t directed in a happy optimistic way- or as a joke. It’s something I need to change about myself. Which is why i’m writing this- something I absolutely never would have considered before- as I’m not one to open up often. I’d much rather just stick to my sarcastic jokes on twitter.

So it’s got me thinking that I need to throw myself back into this blog. Take more time to appreciate the small happinesses in life and to give me something to be enthusiastic about again. God that sounds mopey and pathetic. Sorry.

So expect exciting things from me! Or not too exciting because really how exciting can a broke fashion student’s life get?

Thank you x

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Sale Shopping

Now, you know I love a bargain. And as the January sales are in full swing, I have been shopping quiiiite a lot recently…

I already spent the majority of my money on my mulberry handbag (which is now my baby, how did I ever live without it?!) and that too was in the sales, so, practically a bargain!! But of course I couldn’t resist doing some clothes sale shopping too, which has literally left me with just over £100 in my bank boohoo (no more shopping for me for a while waa).

Instead of boring you with a loooong post with lots of photos, I thought I’d bore you with an awkward video instead!

 

So, have you done a lot of sale shopping? Is anyone as broke as I am now? hahaha

À bientôt!!

 

 

Mulberry

Today I received my beautiful Mulberry handbag that I have wanted forever through the post!

As a girl who loves anything pretty, this bag has been on my wanted list for ages, but originally priced at £670, it was rather out of my price range…

On boxing day however, I was lazing about on my laptop when I happened to click onto the Mulberry website to lust over the pretty things that I couldn’t afford. Then something magical happened. I saw the word sale.

I literally screamed when I saw that my bag, the bag I had lusted over for so long had been reduced by almost 50%. I’m not even kidding, I literally screamed.

And now I have it in my arms and its beautiful and I’m so so so happy. And broke. But happy.

I made a vlog with me rambling about the bag for like 12 hours (ok maybe that’s an exaggeration but ha) its basically an unboxing and I hope you enjoy my awkwardness 🙂

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I just realised how many times I say basically and nice in that video wow how embarrassing haha.

Anyway I love it and i’m really happy and it has definitely made my pretty crappy week a lot better 🙂

À bientôt!!

Happy New Year

Now that 2013 is officially upon us, i feel its time to welcome in the new year with some sparkly champagne and a few resolutions to make this year fabulous.

Personally, i always like to have more than one resolution, and i always like to make them pretty achievable. My continuous resolutions that i still haven’t finished from last year include bake more yummy cakes more often and learn more french. Haha! Thinking about it, I should probably learn how to cook some more proper food because my limit is literally toast. With the occasional tin of pasta shapes if im feeling adventurous ooh!

This year, however, I have gone for~

1. Visit a place that I have never been to before.
This has crept onto my list for the past few years, and it is always the most satisfying resolution to fulfil. In 2012 I was lucky enough to visit Paris for the first time in my life, a city I have since completely fallen in love with. To say that I would move there in an instant is an understatement, it is a beautiful city with a fabulous way of life, the only thing stopping me from returning straight away is the boredom that i like to call college. Sigh.

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Here are a couple of the photos I took on my trip. I was so lucky to be blessed with such a beautiful sky on my first morning in Paris. Beautiful Beautiful.

2. Eat better, be skinnier. 

I want to be skinny and elegant. Waif-like and delicate. I know its an unhealthy obsession, and I know im skinny enough already. But if i just loose a few more pounds i will be happy. I promise.
Really I just want to be stricter with my day to day food routine and cut back on the amount of ‘treats’ that i allow myself throughout the week. I want to tone my arms and I want a completley flat stomach. I want to look good for summer (bikini season is fast approaching!)

3. Spend more time dedicating myself to college art.
I need to begin to live breathe and sleep the kind of art that my college needs me to submit. I may not enjoy the themes that we have been given to study as much as i enjoy my own kind of art that I spend hours and hours reading about, but I need to put in effort to enjoy what I’m doing more. If i put in the effort now, when it comes to picking uni courses and making scary life changing decicions I hope I will be more prepared for that than I am at the moment. One of the reasons i havent applied to a uni for next year like pretty much everyone my age is because i still dont know exactly what kind of art i want to do in life. Or even if I want to restrict myself to one media at all. Who knows.

4. Blog frequently to fill my spare time reminding myself of the things that inspire me.
If I begin to loose hope, if I begin to question why I have chosen the art path at all in my life,(which trust me, has been happening a lot lately purely because I have no solid idea about my future), I hope that this blog will be somewhere that I can call home, somewhere which holds all of my true creative influences and somewhere that gives me comfort. I will gradually begin posting my own work, maybe this blog will even become something that universities would be interested in seeing- part of my portfolio in some ways.

5. Dont forget about the small pleasures in life.
Things like scented candles and fairy lights, face packs and long bubble baths, laying in the grass on a summers day and simply having time alone. I need to remember to take a break every now and then, to relax and just enjoy some of the simpler things in life, the things that make me the happiest.

Finally, enjoy life.
I’m young and I need to remember not to stress about every small thing. Sure, there will be times when i have lots of deadlines, personal issues and annoyances, but I need to remember to just breathe. I need to remember that more than likely everything will turn out fine in the end, and the stressing will have been completley pointless and unessecary.

I need to remember to keep life sparkly and fun ^^
What are your new years resolutions? Do you usually stick to them? Let me know in the comments and i will give you a cupcake of your choice 🙂

À bientôt!! ❤

Hello

My name is Holly, and i finally decided that making a blog where i could keep ideas would be a good idea~

Welcome to my blog please excuse the awkward video of awkwardness pfft. I hate first posts what do you even write in a first post so i though yes a video PERFECT idea (and then i realised how terrible it was eee).

Better posts coming your way very very soon~ ^^

A bientôt!